My dying biker father begged me to visit him in the cancer ward for once, but I was too ashamed to visit him so told everyone he was already dead rather than admit he existed.
For eighteen years, I’d hidden him from my world. My Ivy League friends. My lawyer fiancé. My perfect life.
When people asked about my father, I said he died when I was young. Easier than explaining the tattoos. The Harley. The criminal record he got protecting me.
My father, Jack “Diesel” Morrison, died two weeks ago in a cancer ward with no one holding his hand. He died after leaving me forty-seven voicemails I never returned. He died believing I hated him.
And maybe I did. Or maybe I hated what he represented. The part of my life I’d spent eighteen years trying to erase.
You see, my father was a biker. Not a weekend warrior with a midlife crisis Harley. A real biker. Leather vest with patches. Tattoos covering both arms. Bar fights. Criminal record. The whole stereotype.
I was twenty-five when he died. A first-year associate at Morrison, Kline & Associates (yes, the irony of sharing his name at a firm where I denied his existence isn’t lost on me).
Engaged to Richard, whose father was a federal judge. Living in a downtown penthouse.
Everything he wasn’t.
The last time I’d spoken to him was my high school graduation. Seven years ago. He’d shown up on his Harley, wearing his cleanest jeans and his leather vest, trying so hard to look presentable.
“I’m proud of you, Princess,” he’d said.
“Don’t call me that,” I’d snapped. “And please leave before the ceremony. You’re embarrassing me.”
The look on his face should have haunted me. It didn’t. I was too busy being mortified that my friends might see him.
Might connect me to him. Might realize I wasn’t the orphaned survivor I’d painted myself to be.
The calls started six months ago.
“Hey Princess, it’s Dad. I know you don’t want to hear from me, but I’m sick. Pretty bad. Doctors say maybe a year. Maybe less. I’d really like to see you.”
Delete.
“Princess, it’s me again. I understand you’re angry. You have every right to be. But there are things you don’t know. Things about when you were little. Things I need to tell you.”
Delete.
“Sarah, please. I’m not asking for forgiveness. I’m just asking for one hour. One conversation. I have something to give you. Something from your mother.”
Delete.
My mother. Another lie I told. Said she died in childbirth. Cleaner than the truth: she overdosed when I was seven, leaving me with a biker father who had no idea how to raise a little girl.
The calls got more frequent. More desperate. His voice got weaker.
“Sarah, I’m in the hospital now. St. Mary’s. Room 408. They say weeks, maybe days. Please, Princess. I need to tell you about that night. About why I went to prison. It wasn’t what you think.”
I deleted every message. Blocked his number. Told myself I’d made the right choice cutting him out.
Then his lawyer called with a box of his belongings and a letter that started with thirteen words that destroyed me: “My beautiful daughter, you……
“My beautiful daughter, you were the only thing I ever did right.”
I sat there on my pristine marble kitchen floor, the letter trembling in my hands while the city skyline glittered behind me like nothing had changed—except everything had.
The box his lawyer sent sat open beside me. Inside:
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His worn leather wallet
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A faded photo of me at age six, missing teeth and covered in mud, sitting on his shoulders
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A tiny silver locket I’d never seen
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And a folded stack of letters tied with a shoelace
I couldn’t breathe as I kept reading.
“I know you don’t want anything from me. I understand why you hate me.
But before I go, I need you to know the truth about your mother, about prison, about that night you think you remember.
You were seven. You saw me get arrested, and you thought it was because I hit a man in a bar fight.
I let you believe that. I thought it was better than the truth.”
My vision blurred. I turned the page with shaking hands.
“The man I beat was your mother’s dealer.
He came to take you as payment for her debt.
He said she’d signed you over.
He was walking you out the door when I got there.
I broke his jaw and three ribs and would’ve killed him if the cops hadn’t come.
I took the fall so you’d never know how close she came to giving you away.
I never told you because I didn’t want you to hate her too.”
I dropped the letter and clutched my chest like something inside me had ripped open.
Memories I’d buried came roaring back—shouts, sirens, my mother crying, a strange man grabbing my arm. I thought Dad was the monster then.
He’d gone to prison for saving me.
The next line gutted me:
“I wore that record like armor so you could build a life without my shadow.
I let you believe I was the mistake in your story.
I would do it again.”
The pages blurred as tears finally came.
But the last letter—tucked beneath the rest—was addressed to someone else.
“To Richard Kline.”
My fiancé.
My blood ran cold.
Hands numb, I opened it.
“You don’t know me, but you know my daughter.
I don’t expect your respect, only your honesty.
Tell her the truth if she won’t hear it from me.
And give her what’s in the locket. She’ll understand when she sees it.”
My stomach twisted. I snapped open the little silver locket. Inside was a folded piece of paper no bigger than a thumbnail.
I unfolded it carefully.
It was a birth certificate fragment.
My birth certificate.
But under “Father,” it didn’t say Jack Morrison.
It listed another man’s name—Richard H. Kline.
My fiancé’s father.
I stared at it, the room tilting, breath gone.
I wasn’t just engaged to the judge’s son.
I was engaged to the son of the man who abandoned my mother before I was born.
The man my father went to prison protecting me from being taken by.
And I had told everyone—told Richard, too—that Jack was dead.
My dying, lonely father had carried that secret for decades.
He let the world despise him so I could love the people who’d discarded us both.
And I never even said goodbye.
The last line of his letter was written in shaky ink:
“You are not her mistake, and you were never mine.
Find out who you are before you marry into a lie.
I love you, Princess.
—Dad.”
That’s when my phone buzzed on the floor beside me.
It was Richard.
And for the first time in my life, I didn’t know if I was the liar—or the fool about to learn he’d always known the truth.